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Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Surviving Motherhood


How do we survive motherhood? I don't think there is an actual manual, everything we read are advice or suggestions, something to potentially give us hope. I mentioned in my last post that I have moved from home (my parent's) into a house in New Jersey, so my life changed dramatically from being a bonafide city girl, to a stay at home full time mom, in a small country like suburban neighborhood. Though the lifestyle here is way more simple and less vain, the work load has officially took its toll on me. When Sage and I lived with my parents, it was a little easier to move around, considering the help I had between them and Will. Now that we are alone and not close enough to squeeze in a little family baby sitting time, it is a bit more challenging, and honestly, overtly tiring. We don't get much sleep, everything works on Sage's nap time schedule or else we are going to have to deal with her Katey Kaboom Wrath, and in between all the errands we have to run, I still have to fit in the household duties. Now, I am not complaining, I just want to know how do women do this and not lose their sanity? Or do we lose it, but go with the flow? I am learning to keep things in order by scheduling my entire agenda, not saying that it always works out fine. But.... here are some tips that may help first time mom, though I am one myself, I can also pass on my advice so you don't lose your mind as well.


  1. Prepare the night before - Everything seems to work out best when you plan ahead for trips, dinner or laundry. I noticed when I try to cram everything in without preparing, I get frustrated because it doesn't work promptly or smoothly
  2. Take your baby out - This one I don't like to do as much because I am an extreme home body. I prefer to be in the comfort of my own home, and gratefully we have a big yard so Sage can romp around all she wants with Bo. However, taking your child outside is good enough to tire them out. There is so much to explore (though I can't stand when they pick things up) they will just get overwhelmed and crash. 
  3. Make time for tea or coffee - No matter what, I make time for my coffee, and thats usually when Sage is taking her nap, it is the most peaceful time ever. You'll feel slightly, just slightly energize before little one wakes up, especially if you catch yourself up on the latest shows, you tube videos, trends, blogs, whatever! I mean, take a NAP! I for some reason never really take naps because there's so much I feel I need to catch up on.
  4. Make time for loved ones - We can't forget that our spouses needs our time too between the mayhem. I can be a little selfish with my time but it is important in a relationship that you both remain close for your family.
  5. And lastly, find your inspiration - We have to remain creative and continue to do what it is that we love. Some times we need that push, and really don't have the right people or tools around us. I loved watching motivational you tube videos, or motivational testimonials, just because some times I need that positive energy to give me drive. 
Mother hood is draining but it is all about balancing everything out. Some days you don't need to sweep, just skip laundry for a week, eat some leftovers and enjoy your time here. 




In the photos I decided to finally take photos of myself in our living room. It was simply spirit of the moment, I did not put on any make up or prepare any outfits, just because my time is limited. 

Friday, June 8, 2018

Changing Stage

 A lot has changed since I've last posted. It killed me everyday not to be able to sign on and do what I love, take photos, edit them and share them with you all. I had to focus on other things, and at that time, that's what was important to me. However not being able to express my colors was a never ending battle! But having a child won the war, it was the beginning of my new life, as a mom! I wanted to share this with you all, but I simply didn't have time and it was easier to post on social media to those who do follow. Also, keeping up a blog is a job within itself, and since my life was going through this dramatic change, I had to choose what was priority and of course my time was limited. Furthermore, I can't say my life is in shambles, it was more of a comfortable battle, a battle that I'd accepted and was willing to fight with happiness. But... I have reached a point in my life where I am beginning a battle with myself, my fight with "being" or let's say "living out my truth". I can't forget myself or get consumed into nurturing, though I have no problem giving my little girl whatever she needs, I feel that I need to find my truth before it's too late, if there's even a deadline for that. I feel like I've lost myself in motherhood a little, "letting yourself go" some might say, but not in the form of appearance but by ignoring my creative nature or finding what it is that I bring to this earth the time that I am here. 
Since having Sage we decided that we needed to get a home. Somewhere we can raise her together, better and as our own family. We wanted to stay in New York close to our family but we also wanted something different and simpler. Less fast pace and intimate. We fell in love with this small colonial home in suburban New Jersey, pedestaled on top of a hill, surrounded by life and greenery. I contested a little in the beginning considering that I've never been away from my family, and I wasn't so sure I was ready to take Sage away from them in fear of her not knowing who they are. However, apart of life is about moving forward with it, to be able to follow your truth and continue your journey, no matter who you have to leave behind. And besides, it's only an hour away from home, who the hell am I kidding??!!!! (lol). Now I realized that I am going through another stage in my life, I understand that I need to trust it accept what it is and be 100% grateful... I am... :) 


There's going to be a lot of changes to this blog as I try to become more transparent with you, thank you.